Poem by Charlie Juno Metcalf

Ortolan

The docile man is most charming
With fragments of bone stuck between his teeth
Hearts and livers thick on his breath
Repentant in his own pleasure

He is prosperous, yet he covets
Consuming the delicate songbird
A veiled concubine
Shrinking from watchful eyes

Charlie Juno Metcalf is a third-year Theatre major. When she’s not scribbling in a notebook or rehearsing a show, Charlie likes to make bracelets, watch old TV shows, and play The Sims. She loves her mean and very grumpy cat named Mokie.

Poem by Quinn Mansperger

Waiting for the Sky to Change

I hate beginning this without knowing where to start
Sitting beneath your canopy, orange
lantern light illuminating my pen. Blue ink
scratching out the words that don’t exist yet
Pausing at the tip of my pen as my brain stumbles
upon that one word. That leaves me hurting me more
than your candles and their dripping wax
when they burn my toes

Sometimes I forget the feeling
of the night sky pressing down upon my shoulders
Pouring stardust into my shoes that keep me trapped
in place. Long enough for those unsaid words
to catch up with me. Reminding me of that internal battle
a game of tug of war, a flip of a coin deciding whether or not
that now is the time to admit that it is
me against I

Elven Tree, I tried to be like you
I tried to carry the weight of everyone else’s toxic thoughts
I tried to hold their lanterns off the ground so that their demons
can’t extinguish their light. But my roots
aren’t strong like yours and my branches
have no room left for my own lantern

I thought I was strong enough to carry their weight
Believed that I was powerful like the skyscrapers
reaching higher and higher into the night sky until
their spires touch the stars. But every time I raise it
just a little higher. Add one more floor to my building
so that when I fall, I fall a little further
and I fall worse than I ever have

Did you also tell the others that you would be there
to help pick them up when they fell? That you would
not allow them to be consumed by the moment
where they take in the fact that they were not good enough
to reach the stars and that is why they left us in darkness

Did you tell them that everything is temporary
That you and I are temporary. That the words I can’t write
are temporary. That the expectations I hold myself to everyday
are temporary. If this is your wisdom
the reason for why perfect doesn’t last
Then I need you to answer me why
Why does it hurt so much to finally say the things I need to tell myself

That I deserve to be alright
That I’m my closest friend and only have to reintroduce myself to him
Treat him a little better cause he is with me till the end
When my lantern finally burns out upon your scared ground
and the stars return to the night sky

Quinn Mansperger is a sophomore majoring in Creative Writing here at New England College. He enjoys reading, writing, playing video games and baseball. He has a Yorkshire terrier named Chewie (yes. just like Chewbacca from Star Wars.) He has an older twin sister and two younger twin sisters.

Short Story by Eric Miller

Sharkey’s Last Resort

It was Tuesday in Arlington, Texas, about nine at night. The sun had gone down about three hours ago and the vestiges of tranquility had subsided. In its place was the loud sound of Harley engines roaring into the small drive of an obtuse man.

The man hadn’t a care in the world and didn’t concern himself with the comfort of others. Nearby was a gas station that was now just a garage that worked on cars.

The pumps had been capped off years prior and the owner had become cranky and old with the passage of time. Restaurants lined the street some were local pubs that served Irish brews and stews; others were roadhouses like Sharkey’s that concocted venison, steak, or jack on the rocks.

One never knew what they would get themselves into when coming into the town.

Sure, the name on the settled sign said “Arlington,” but to most it was their last resort. Graffiti could be seen on the local elementary school with colors of black and green.

It wasn’t what you would think, however.

These were murals done in the school colors showcasing the local mascot: the grasshopper. Surely an odd choice for a school mascot, but there have been others that were worse, no doubt. Charles “Chuck” Shermer was a custodian at the elementary school; he took his kids Scott and Danny there many times after hours. He did this to try to help them learn to ride their bicycles. Taking training wheels off a bike is a scary first step to independence for a kid. Chuck knew how hard this was on his boys, as it is he had a hard time learning to ride his bike as a kid.

While movies like Teen Wolf and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles were a thing being featured on commercials for the local movie theater, his boys were still on the Mister Rogers and Sesame Street phase of their life. He had to be careful of what he let them watch because they would learn and imitate what they were watching. Now, they were venturing into this unknown of bike-riding. It was kind of cool to see them also make the switch over to television, watching Reading Rainbow.

Being able to talk about more mature things, no matter how gradual that comes about, is a much-needed respite for a single father who’s been stuck discussing juvenile concerns.

On this day of trying to teach his sons to ride bikes, Chuck tells his boys in preparation, “Scott, Danny, I am going to walk behind you with my hand on each of your bikes, and gradually I am going to let go.”

The boys looked in shock at their father with the realization that the safety net was not going to be there – the safety net that they had come to depend on for this task. So, gradually Chuck gets his boys ready. They put on their bike helmets, and Scott, the eldest at 7, goes first.

“Alright Scott, now easy, son, easy, it will be okay,” Chuck tells his son. Sure enough, Scott is unscathed in his first solo bicycle ride, and he begins to ride around the school parking lot with a bit of eagerness. Danny looks on, wanting to emulate his older brother and not let his father down in the process.

“Don’t worry son, your turn next. I’m just going to let Scott ride around a bit more, and I want to watch him,” Chuck assures his younger son. Danny cannot contain his anticipation any longer, and he gets on his bicycle, which still has the training wheels on it.

“Well, I am going to ride around. It’s boring to wait for my turn,” Danny blurts out. So, he attempts to peddle off. He gets going too fast, and the bike tips over and Danny skins his little knee. “WAH, WAH,” Danny cries in pain from his injury.

“Son, I told you that you would be getting your turn next, but it will be ok. Walk it off,” Chuck tells his son.

The afternoon after the fall wasn’t quite the outing Chuck had envisioned for his boys. He never wanted to see one of them get hurt. Nonetheless, that’s what happened to Danny, and he didn’t like seeing his son in pain. However, as people grow up, they need to go through adversity to accomplish anything of value.

“At the very least, Danny was learning one of life’s most valuable lessons,” Chuck couldn’t help but think to himself. At Chuck’s apartment on River Road, he cleans Danny’s knee with peroxide and dresses it with a bandage.

“Danny, why don’t you go play in the living room with your brother while I work on making dinner – and try to take it easy, huh,” Chuck tells his son.

Chuck sets out to prepare dinner for himself and the boys. He lays out on the kitchen counter: potatoes, corn, ground beef, two white onions, carrots. He begins by dicing the onions into fine pieces and adding them to a large skillet on the stove. He then adds the already cooked ground beef he had refrigerated the night before from when they had hamburgers, and adds that to the skillet as well.

You can hear the mix sizzle as it comes up to temperature and the delicious aroma begins to fill the apartment.

“Thank goodness Betty Crocker makes these instant potatoes, otherwise I would spend all night peeling and cooking them,” Chuck mutters to himself.

He follows the directions on the box to the letter, whipping up the spuds, then microwaving the carrots and corn, and lastly adding the mix to a casserole dish and lets it all bake for 15 minutes.

“Boys, dinner will be ready in 15 minutes. Go wash your hands and then set the table,” Chuck tells his sons. “Awe, dad, do we have to,” Scott and Danny say to their father.

Reluctantly, the boys finally head into the small bathroom and one at a time wash their hands. There is a cloth hand towel hanging on a small rack near the sink, where they each dry their hands.  

Dinner is served and Chuck and his sons sit around the table. “Could you pass the Chinese pie please, Scott,” Chuck asks his eldest son.

“OK,” Scott says. He hands his dad the casserole dish. “You know in Ireland, they make this meal we are eating with lamb,” Chuck tells his boys.

“Yucky,” both boys say at once. Chuck and his boys continue eating dinner he shares with them some historical context for the recipe’s origin.

“I bet you didn’t know that in Ireland, this meal is called shepherd’s pie, but it is also called Chinese pie here in America. It depends on the ingredients and region it is made,” Chuck tells his sons. The boys look less then enthused to hear the nightly lesson on where recipes come from in the world.

Dinner concludes and Chuck says, “Boys, why don’t you go watch TV. I am going to clean up the kitchen and get the dishes off the table, then we can watch TV together for a couple hours before you have to go to bed.”

Sharkey’s Last Resort was a movie Chuck saw on cable one time. It was set in Arlington, Texas, and the plot was kind of wonky. He always thought, Arlington, Texas? How could it be that it was the actual town used in the film, and he just so happened to live in it as well? Life parallels art, no doubt, but usually not this much.

It wasn’t really 9 p.m. after all. As it turns out, it was only 7 p.m., and Chuck had managed to get back to the apartment with the boys and fit dinner in in less time than he had thought. This time of year, it gets dark early, so, it threw he and the boys off. Sure, dinner was always at 7 p.m., but bedtime wasn’t for another two hours.

So, his initial glance at his watch, which read that it was 9 p.m., was a false assumption. He had also forgotten to reset his watch to account for the darkness this time of year.

Luckily, he had the day off. Otherwise, he would have messed up his rounds and the nightly floor buffing and waxing routine that needed to be done at the school.

These nightly floor maintenance routines were a ritual by now for Chuck, having done them for the past five years, but he was making good progress at his job.

Anthony Solano, the current head custodian, was getting older, and Chuck was being asked to put in more hours to offset Anthony’s only working part-time. This was also the perfect lead in for him to put in for that very job in two years when the older man would be officially stepping down.

Small town schools are not the factories you see in inner cities, that’s for sure. As a small-town school janitor, people come to know and trust you the longer you are a part of the community, and Chuck had certainly built a reputation for himself.

On weekends, Scott and Danny would stay with their aunt and uncle, who also lived in town. This gave Chuck the freedom to work unencumbered.

During these visits to the relatives, the boys were usually rambunctious, so their aunt and uncle would bring them to the school. There, they could see their dad while he was working. Boys need their dad, especially when two little guys like Scott and Danny have lost their mother to breast cancer. It’s all the more important for them to have as much family around as possible.

Eric Miller is the 2016 recipient of the dedicated contributor award for the NHT Eye Literary Journal at NHTI Community College. His literary journey at New England College and as a member of the class of 2022 was featured in the New Englander.

Poem by Becki Eaton

Cigarette Walks

I watch my heart dissolve
In emotionless pieces
Hovering over my head

Shriveled and curled
Tearless skulls
And intricate, white lines

Heavy feet and heavy steps
Under the river, the streetlights
The abandoned train station

I watch, the last little bit
Burn, on the veins of my wrist
Like a sparrow, in momentary bliss

Becki Eaton is a sophomore majoring in marketing and minoring in creative writing. She plays ice hockey and rugby. She started writing short stories in small journal with crayon drawings when she was little. Now, she has been especially fond of writing poetry.

Three Poems by Eric Miller

At Night

I sit alone at night on the sofa.
The sofa sits alone with me.
My television has images that are projected back at me.
I sit alone at night on the sofa.
The sofa sits alone with me.
Morning is on its way is a thought occurring to me.
I sit alone at night on the sofa.
The sofa sits alone with me.
The sun is rising out my window birds I do see.
I sit alone at night on the sofa.
The sofa sits alone with me.
Morning comes, I awaken from my slumbering ways.
I sit alone at night on the sofa.
The sofa sits alone with me.
Putting off the coming day is a ritual you see.
Therefore it occurs to me.
I merely go through the motions most of my days.
I sit alone at night on the sofa.
The sofa sits alone with me.
I have insomnia can’t you see!

Two Lads

Two lads sit in highchairs.
One silent
One exploring, quite vocal.
Adults look at the young ins.
Out of control.
Out of chairs.
A waitress smiles, takes lunch orders.
Patrons enter, exit the restaurant at will.
The young infants attempt to rustle around.
The children test the adults nerves crawling.
The ground they crawl around on making a mess.
The day progresses.
The children are back home.
The unknown is what each of the boys is encountering.
The unknown countering the vast experiences of the adults.
Naiveness of the child.
Mild
Sharp
These extremes.
And so it would seem people need both.
Folks dine out and dine in spending time together.
Air conditioning and comfort are what’s best in hot weather.

A Man

A man sits alone in a cavern , while another man sits alone in a tavern.
A man lays on a beach, while down the road is a man trying to use his power saw.
A man has trouble because his extension cord will not reach.
A town comprises many houses all seemingly similar from the distance.
A struggle of everyday living the pinnacle of human existence.
A gas station has run fresh out of gasoline.
A windshield wiper hasn’t a drop of water to clean.
A church brings hope to the masses, a bowl of chili brings noxious gases.
A waiter waits for a cab to bring him to work.
A cabbie wonders what his job is worth.
A paint brush creates new worlds.
A teacher educates boys and girls.
A renaissance man does all things for all people.
A coloring book contains images of everyday people needing to be colored in.
A feeble feeling like a mouse caught in a blizzard.
A Christmas goose is deprived of its gizzard.
A toast, cheers to all the delights as they say.
A merry Christmas, a good night, and day.
A blizzard with mountains of snow.
Shovel,
Shovel, my back will face a frightful feeling I will not be able to let go.

Eric Miller is the 2016 recipient of the dedicated contributor award for the NHT Eye Literary Journal at NHTI Community College. His literary journey at New England College and as a member of the class of 2022 was featured in the New Englander.

Three Poems by Russell Rowland

Lessons on Snow

We learned in class that white is all colors,
yet no rainbow today. We learned at weddings,
it is virgin pure (though they’d slept together);

in due ambivalence, yielded ourselves
to the advent condescending out of heaven,
its myriad doves, pentecostal,

no two the same—we heard that from parents,
who rest now where a snow quilt
tucks them in, along with other shrewd elders.

The little boy in me, and the little girl in you,
knew without being told that play
is the first joy, as well as the first joy to go.

The snow was our playmate—even school
was canceled for it. We went outside
booted, gloved, the only knowledge needed.

But here is no Eden. Our Town plows snow
out of the path of commuters. We
were advised of our duty, and handed shovels.

Stepping Carefully

Snow melted to water, water froze.
Some folk are bags of brittle bones, but all
who sortie watch their step. A fall
is quick, the landing hard: one might well
not get up again. Should I remain

upright, it is on the strength of years
spent stepping gingerly into certain homes:
dark parlors, mirrors turned
to the wall, family assembled in silence,
waiting—a misstep ruined everything.

If I stay on my feet all winter,
it can also be from scaling the high places
where ancestral spirits still dwell
with the Great Spirit, although those
who once brought offerings don’t return.

(I knew to remove my boots.)
With care I’ve trodden tractionless ice—
into old houses of many rooms,
locked doors, long hallways, grim faces
at the end. I sat where they told me.

By the Road

When air is cool as crystal to the touch,
and trees abandon chlorophyl for other hues,
tour busses come. Engines idle outside
restaurants before heading north, diesel-odorous.

Think about this, when you see all traffic bound
in one direction, entire carloads enroute:
what seduction do such hillsides have to offer;
what Siren song are these woods singing?

Indeed, what lures any prodigal from the routine
of dutiful service, fattening calves
for slaughter? It could be helpful to understand
the attraction—so wait by the roadside,

assess the excursion. But also, keep your eye
on the uncrowded return lane. Perhaps
somebody in a car that climbed Mt Washington
said simply, “I want to go home.”

Seven-time Pushcart Prize nominee Russell Rowland writes from New Hampshire’s Lakes Region, where he has judged high-school Poetry Out Loud competitions.  His work appears in “Except for Love: New England Poets Inspired by Donald Hall” (Encircle Publications), and “Covid Spring, Vol. 2” (Hobblebush Books). His latest poetry book, “Wooden Nutmegs,” is available from Encircle Publications.

No pets, just pet peeves.

Two Poems by M.Z. Hopkins

A History of Wonder

I.
I am seven
My first aware of this spring
almost-summer dream
Short, and standing in my big blue house’s shadow
I French kiss the dirt
I taste every mineral,
every root
My gums are tight, my teeth rough
I lick the iron in my molars
and those roots flourish within me
They entangle in my aorta
I find it hard to breathe
Yet I, myself, feel free
Feeling flowers bloom from every bronchiole
There is a trunk growing from me
I catch every fresh-born petal falling in spring
A twig of twinkle,
a sprig of a lovelace wind deity
And I lift my face from the grass–
stains of green on my cheek
There are chloroplasts in my corneas
I can finally see
I take a step back
the rake sinks into my heel
Achilles begs for mercy
But I focus solely on the backyard twinkle tree
standing high above me
It weaves and bobs in the wind
The sky begins to rain
A puddle forms at my boots
and in the little crater created by me

II.
Ten years later I am seventeen
I have since gone through many more seasons
Taller now, but still standing in my blue house’s shadow,
stare down at an abrupt stump
of what was once the backyard twinkle tree
I lay on my back
I feel every root that has grown outward through me
My heart pounds, every beat a rustle of that tree
The bronchiole blossoms have since peeled off from winter
There are still its flowers, leaves, babies, littered on the grass–
babies born to the current cold freeze
I rub my hand across the bump
and in the distance hear the breeze deity’s wind song
I look at the scar at the back of my heel
It is grayed out like clouds
and phloem spirals in the dead woods
The hot spike of the rusted rake
warms me, my Achilles, and my memory
of the tall what-once-was
Its words hum within me,
echoing through every blade of dead, brown grass
The winter cries snowflake tears
and I wonder what could have become of the twinkle tree

III.
The history of Wonder is
“A feeling of surprise
mingled with admiration,
caused by something beautiful,
unexpected, unfamiliar, inexplicable”
Wonder
“Desire or be curious
to know something”
Ponder, think about,
meditate, reflect, ask
“Feel doubt”
That dead, brown grass
Old English wundor,
Wundrian of Germanic origin;
related to Dutch wonder
and German Wunder,
of unknown ultimate origin
The what-once-was twinkle tree

Goodbye Mother

My feet are walking
I’m wandering
if I’m the one moving them,
I’m wondering
The soy strands lean toward me

I don’t know what I’ll do when my mother is gone
I’ll want to ask her
I want to ask her
how can I get through this
how will I get through this

And I can’t.
Because my mother will be gone.

I was here,
waiting for you
I am sticky with sweat
My limbs float up
I am filled with summer air

Go home
Take a rest
Don’t be scared
She is there
waiting for me

You’re not dead yet
I won’t let you be dead yet

I wonder if
maybe
I’m just talking to myself

It’s all earth and dust
There is no grass around this house
We stir our tea
We are silent for awhile

M.Z. Hopkins is a Creative Writing major and currently a junior at New England College. Fun fact: He is actually an omnipotent being on the Henniker Review. He has multiple pets whom he refers to as “his rats,” but really they are two Yorkshire Terriers named Lexi and Piper, one Ragdoll cat named Junie, a dinosaur-aged rabbit named Chip, and two algae eater fish named Penelope and Patricia.

Two Poems by L.S. Woods

Wayward Transitions

I kept my rosary in a little plastic jar,
pearls and sterling silver
unmoved.

It stayed cold by the window.

Sterile

White walls paint me blue.
How-to manuals
on decluttering.
Bathe in breathe in bleach,
scrub the skin off feet
with photocopied
washcloths. He will break
every scratched CD,
impure sound cannot
be allowed to mar
pure ears. She’s counting
calories in her
cold reeking kitchen. 
Drum machines and synth
too simple for old
radio. Money
making schemes rotting.
Soft childhood dreams. 

L.S. Woods is a first-year student at New England College majoring in Creative Writing and Education. He spends most of his time with headphones on or his nose-deep in a book when not in class or at work. L.S. plans to become an English teacher, and eventually a professor at NEC- he is a life-long learner. He has a pet cat, Ashton, whom he devotes many cuddles to each day.

Two Poems by Patrick T. Meighan

Broken Echoes

A child may manage
To sing
A small birdsong
On a small branch
Above a grave
Clamoring
With bone and ash
Within a flock of
Tombstones.


We’ll Make Fine Corpses

An old man’s skin blossoms
with faded tattoos, his wrinkles chisel into dust.
His flesh full of prayers sloughs
To join the dead
Unannounced
as ghosts steal the moon’s lies,
Tracing askance geometries of light.
How lovely the dead must be.

Patrick Meighan lives the life of a nomadic adjunct, teaching poetry, journalism, and composition courses at New England College, Saint Anselm College, and Manchester Community College. His poems, reviews, and translations have appeared in online and print journals, and his second chapbook “Poems for a Winter Afternoon” was published in 2018. He is the co-editor of “Images from Ruin,” an anthology of 9/11 poems and art, and his first chapbook “Jurisprudence” was published in 2014. He earned his MFA in creative writing from the low-residency program at New England College in 2013.